what warm unspoken secrets will we learn... we've passed the point of no return

haha. i was bored. so i flipped thru the archive and read the very first post i eva made. we've sure come a long long way. yupp we have. had this blog a bit before i came to nj... remember what i was like then... but then i think only a few ppl who read this blog actually knew the very different me then.

how have i changed so much in the span of a year? i dunno. i don't much like the way i've changed. maybe it's better i stayed the person i was in sec4, but there's no going back.

it's nice to be comfortable in your own skin, like you know what you're like, nothing more, nothing less; and this shldn't be confused with egoism or self-praise, i think it's more like self-confidence and self-esteem. like someone told me before, if you can't love yourself it's tough for others to love you.

but room for improvement is the biggest room in the world, non? so...

just gotta trust in God that He's leading me where i shld be, and trust that i'm trying to fulfill His plan for me. sigh. it's so tough... and yeah the spirit is willing but the flesh is VERY weak. :( and so... it's a long journey. i'm gonna start with Lent. 3 more weeks of Lent till Easter! i love Easter.

oh yeah, almost forgot to comment on sunday. went to play for children lit again. actually i don't mind it much, but i have an awful tendency to play either too high or too low. doesn't help that the piano is SO out of pitch X_X maybe next time i shld bring my keyboard... but it's so heavy n unwieldy. shall get a stand and a case for it.

haiz. i wrecked my earphones, not purposely either. :( now i gotta get new ones. greg was so cute. he was like, maybe we can scotchtape it together and it'll work again. lol. tried to convince him i didn't wanna fix it that way and that it was probably safer to get new ones. safer for me, that is. he wasn't convinced tho and walked off mumbling abt looking for scotchtape. owells.

mann... looking at the loot i collected today is a bit staggering. all i see is wrapped calories. haiz. at least didn't put on a LOT of weight over cny. i got scared after ms ho told us it takes 6 rounds to burn off one pineapple tart. yupp. so i didn't eat THAT at all. haha.

aiya. sian liao... tmr is a killer day. must give syf lists to fuad. OH #$%*^@( yah i hafta type up the lists. mercymercyme.

ciao. can't slack no more. gotta do math assignment today/tmr morning too :(