Friday, March 11, 2005
- haha feels happy today. stocked up on studying essentials today. -winks-
pj's mom is so smart. today she made a cheesecake n brought it to school -wow- though technically my mom can make too, she doesn't.
wahlau... feel damn old now... then i remember i felt more or less the same turning 16. haha. halcyon years indeed. well, if the poetry we read abt today described war veterans in their "twilight", then i supposed our day has barely broken. although it seems more often than not that tis nightfall huh...
haha. don't be cynical. it's too early to turn pessimistic, in lieu of the fact (hopefully) that the years ahead will be many...
but i'm so tired and it's so easy to be foul mouthed when tired.
i slept on the bus, intermittently but still...
i never sleep on the bus.
at least, never till i came nj.
i gave up a lot of never's for nj.
like never being late. i still like being punctual, but it's okay to turn up fashionably late for meetings.
like never collecting teacher's numbers. i have abt twenty now.
like never stressing myself out
like making sure i have eight hours sleep a day (i can live without dinner or bathing or com, but i need my sleep.)
like going out abt once a month, maybe less
like saving money. i don't save much money now, compared to sec school. i think that's a bad habit.
things seemed so much easier in sec school. so much less...conflicting. life was easygoing. do less, enjoy more.
happiness seems so elusive nowadays. not the longlasting 'forever and ever' kind of happiness, but smiling cos i mean it, laughing with people at inane stuff. not that it doesnt happen, but the whole transcience of the emotion makes me even more tired after the temporary rush wears off. it's like drugs. the dependancy on the drug increases till little doses don't work for you anymore.
at least there's PotO. thankfully providing that little beam of sunshine in my overly cluttered life. i forget at times what music means to me.
everyone's suddenly up on the university bandwagon. walala. makes me think really hard about what the hell i want to do in life. i mean. yea, i wanna do law. but hey there are so many straight a students out there why wld anyone in their right mind choose me? strange indeed. plus yh and i agree. if MNC gets in, pigs will fly. haha. private joke. then consider other options! like accountancy. hmmm. sounds interesting, but then i suspect (like duh) that they sugar coat otherwise dry and 'unacceptable' courses. by unacceptable, i mean boring. haha. irrelevant. whatever.
well......... in the worst case, i suppose i shld be able to apply to arts and social sciences. ahwell.
cross that bridge when we get to it.
slash with the pen |||
6:40:00 pm
