Wednesday, June 22, 2005
- haha i'm slacking in nic's hse (like, again.) i'm staying over tonight! but ostentatiously to study :D
it's depressing to see how slowly the pile of work is diminishing, if at all. i'm relying heavily on what i alr know or have gleaned from the lectures and tutorials. i'm so dead. i'm already a below average student. the worst thing is, i can do much better with effort.
for lit, i ran through my past essays (yes, i know i shld have done it years ago) and i can see all the common fault lines. for instance, my textual knowledge is poor at best and though i have "original ideas", they need to be substantiated by examples or what mr whitby calls "eggs". i can't carry through ideas and sometimes i don't make sense or relate to the topic. hmmm. gotta work on that.
and look how much my chem improved with a bit of effort. granted, it was only organic chem compared to the whole dang syllabus like now but still... hopefully i can eke some such miracle (who am i kidding, right) from the ashes of my dead bio. haiz. i don't want any more failures. it's some great miracle i'm passing. i know i don't deserve to pass, if amount of effort translates directly into grades. but heck, i'm lucky. but luck only takes one so far, and i think i'm approaching the end of my leash.
arghhh. i promised myself not to be depressed.
like i have any right to be depressed. i know very well to reverse this trend i shld STOP BLOGGING NOW and join nic in studying. but... it's just very anti-characteristic. or whatever.
owell, i've succeeded in depressing myself outta here. ciao, ppl.
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